Nicholas Hunter Wilson was born on May 25, 2006 in Pikeville Ky to his parents Josh and Melissa Wilson. He weighed 7lbs 12oz and was 19 1/4 ins. long. He was born at 3:15 pm. He passed away on June 13,2006 at 6:25 pm at the University of Kentucky Children's Hospital in Lexington Ky. 

     Nicholas was born with a condition called Holoprosencephaly. He was a beautiful little angel baby. Nicholas was truly a miracle. The miracle was that he was born at all. He was our joy and still is. He was here with us for 19 days and he struggled so hard to stay. Nicholas endured so much while he was here. But he was too perfect for this world, so God called him home. He was surrounded by love when he passed away due to complications from an infection. Nicholas will be missed for all time by his parents and his extended family. We love you angel baby.

Nicholas' Story

When my husband and I found out that we were pregnant with Nicholas we were ecstactic. We so wanted to have a child. My pregnancy with Nicolas was very difficult. I was sick almost the whole time. I now know that was because of his differences. I was induced on May 24th 2006 and after 281/2 hours of labour our angel was delivered surrounded by loved ones. Our wonderful doctor told us that he was born with a cleft. I wish that that had been the worst of our problems. From the instant he was placed in my arms I loved Nicholas more than my life. He was so beautiful with such soft skin and lots of hair and tiny hands and feet. When he was 6 hours old he was taken by helicopter to UK Childrens Hospital in Lexington Ky. He spent all of his 19 days in the NICU. The staff was wonderful. We were allowed to hold him as much as we wanted. Because of his cleft Nicholas had a surgery to insert a feeding tube into his stomache to help stop the spitting up which was dangerous because he had no way to stop it going into his lungs because of the cleft palate. He came through the surgery with flying colours. The day before we were to bring him home, he delveloped an infection. He fought but he was just too weak. They told us that he probably wouldn't make it through the night. But he did. Nicholas was such a fighter! He hung on till my family could get there to tell him goodbye. At 6:00pm the next day June 13 2006 he began to fail. My husband, my mother and myself were there with him. I held his hand and told him over and over that I loved him and that it was ok for him to go... that I knew he was in so much pain. He squeezed my hand so tight and took his last breath at 6:25pm. Me,my husband, my mom and stepdad, and my husbands parents, all came back into the NICU after they had removed the tubes and things and held him and kissed him goodbye. His funeral was on June 16th 2006. He had a beautiful white coffin and we dressed him in a white gown that had ducks embroidered on it with a hat and matching blanket. he had a little rabbit that was also a blanket in his arms. He looked so beautiful and peaceful. I love my Nicholas I always will there will never be a day that I won't want my son here with me. I love you my angel baby.




                            
                                    

                      Do not stand at my grave and weep
                      I am not there. I do not sleep.
                      I am a thousand winds that blow
                      I am the diamond glints on snow
                      I am the sunlight on  ripened grain
                      I am the gentle autumn rain
                      When you awaken in the mornings hush
                      I am the swift uplifting rush
                      Of quiet birds in circled flight 
                      I am the soft stars that shine at night
                      Do not stand at my grave and cry,
                      I am not there I did not die.



                                


"I have learned that some pain cannot be healed, but must be endured.
I believe our Higher Power will help us to endure and find peace. I
loved the boy with the utmost love of which my soul is capable and he
is taken from me-yet in the agony of my spirit in surrendering such a
treasure, I feel a thousand times richer than if I had never possessed
it." -- William Wadsworth 1812 


                                   

I love this poem. It really says what my husband and I feel about Nicholas.

Mommy and Daddy don't cry for me.
To walk the earth was not meant to be.
I'm in God's house you see.
I watch over you every day.
I know that you love me in a very special way.
You wanted me to be healthy and whole.
So you had to let me go.
You will get to see me every day.
As you look at the children who pass your way.
I may be the little boy with the dimple in his chin.
Or the little girl with the golden curl.
You will know what you did is right because
When you look in the sky on a clear star filled night,
I will be the star that is shining so bright.
I love you Mommy and Daddy, good night.
~Author Unknown 



                                        

Please spread the word about National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Day
Every October 15th. Too many parents grieve in silence because people don't know how to talk to grieving parents. We can change that. If you know a grieving mother or father invite them to talk about their angel and about their grief. Just having someone wanting to know about our child is a great comfort. Our children were here! Just like any other parent we WANT to talk about our children!





Please support the MISSing angels bill. This is a bill that will provide certificates of birth for still born babies. Every parent deserves a birth certificate even if their baby was born sleeping. Check out the following link for more information----www.missingangelsbill.org


                         
                                             


                                          "To Remember Is Painful 
                                            To Forget Is Impossible"
                                               ~Maureen Connelly 


                                                   
 

              ”Sometimes love is for a moment. 
            Sometimes love is for a lifetime. 
           Sometimes a moment is a lifetime” 


                                      
 

             "Loved with a love beyondtelling, 
         Missed with a grief beyond all tears” 


                                              



                              The angels are rocking my baby,
                                at the top of the golden stair.
                                 No harm will ever befall him,
                                    away in that city of fair. 


                                             
 
      My Little Boy

Your little boy cries too much
My little boy makes no sound
Your little boy is warm to touch
Mine lies cold in the ground

Your little boy woke up today
My Angel never will
Your little boy can laugh and play
My little boy lies still

Your little boy makes you so proud
But just as proud as I
Cause though your boy will learn to walk
My little boy can FLY! 

                                


A SPECIAL LITTLE SPIRIT

"You're a Special Little Spirit," the all great Master said,
As he gently caressed the curly dark hair of the Little Spirit's head.
"You need to go to Earth to spend some time, you know,
A place I send most Spirits to be tested, to learn and grow."

The Little Spirit, in sadness, slowly bowed his head,
And from his eye a tear did steal and down his cheek it shed.
"Don't you fret now little one, I won't let you stay too long,
I'll bring you back to help me here,
You'll hardly know that you've been gone.

You're my choicest Little Spirit, you're the apple of my eye."
And He wiped the tear and gently kissed His Little Spirit good-bye. 



                                


"I'm back," the Little Spirit whispered, as he climbed onto his Master's knee,
And the Master said, "I told you, you would not be long away from me." 

                               

And then, the Lord, He noticed still another tear welled in his eye.
"Why are you so sad, Little Spirit, whatever should make you cry?"
"I'm glad I'm back," the Spirit said, "but Master you must surely know,
When your Angel came to get me, I didn't want to go.

I know you said you needed me and that I'd be gone the shortest while,


                                        

But Lord, couldn't I have had a little longer earthly trial?"
The Master let the Little Spirit slip down from off His knee,
He firmly took the little hand and said, "Come walk with me."

The Little Spirit and his Lord walked slowly hand in hand,
As the Master explained his special part in the great and marvelous plan.
"Now Lord, I don't mean to argue, I understand that you needed me home.
But I left in such a hurry, I left everyone hurting and so alone. 

                           

I didn't let my earthly parents know how much I loved them so.
I was much too small to tell them, Lord, how will they ever know?
They feel they've been cheated, and in a way, so do I.
Not getting to share any more than we did, how can I ever tell them why?"

"Little Spirit, I know your heart is heavy with this message you need to share.
But you need not worry anymore, I'll watch over your loved ones there.
I'll send them loving comfort as a strong and helping hand.
I'll content and give peace to their aching hearts, so they will understand. 

                                                

The Little Spirit looked up at his Master and said
"Thank you for explaining it to me.
And could you please tell them I'm safe and happy and
That someday they'll be here with me."
"Yes," said the Lord with a smile and a nod, "I'll tell them all that I can."
Then the others came to see the Little Spirit, as the Lord let go of his hand.
He said, "I'll tell them you're pure, as pure as Heaven's Gold,
That I needed the warmth of your perfect soul to keep Heaven from getting cold."

--Author Unknown 

                                                



It has been our faith in the Lord that has helped us through this time. We know that when Nicholas passed, he was met by hosts of angels who took him home to be with God. If you are a grieving parent, look to the Lord. He will carry you when you can no longer walk this heartbreaking path. He has carried us.